与上帝的交通究竟有多么的奇妙?或许，你不亲自体会 ，很难去相信 。其实，即使你去体会了，可能也难以用语言来描述。因为语言总是有太多的束缚，唯有心里的感受才是最真实 、最动人的。愿爱我们的上帝将平安喜乐赐给所有寻求祂的孩子！
那些天 ，我陷入了怎么样的境地？为了圣诞节的事工，身心俱疲。感觉所有的同工都不理解、不支持，甚至完全是在打击我 。我似乎六神无主了 ，没有了心思祷告，没有了心思读经，甚至连与弟兄姐妹相见都成了一种负担。我宁愿逃开 ，让自己静静的将一切放下。可是越想放下越放不下 。每日除了上班以外的时间，我似乎全部被这样的忧郁困扰。我不知道能够做什么，我也在祷告：主啊 ，求你帮助我走出来。可是，主似乎理都不理我，任由我一个人在旋涡中挣扎 。我的心愈发的痛起来。感觉自己被上帝遗弃了。对别人的倾诉完全变成了诉苦和讨伐 。似乎这个世界上最可怜的人就是我了 ，而其它人一身的错误，只有我是对的。
那些日子 ，简直成了世界末日。每每读到弟兄姐妹发来的安慰的信息，便禁不住泪水涟涟 。可我没有办法走出去。我以为，时间久了 ，我便可以将一切淡忘，甚至不再需要。可我看到这些信息，依然会心痛 ，依然会将过去的一幕幕无数次的在心头重现。上帝说要我们学会彼此宽容、彼此饶恕，可我真的做不到 。
那一天，同工会。安排新一年的事工。我一言不发 ，对我的安排也不做回应 。只想着如何早些逃离。
第二天，是周日。去教堂，我准备去找一本晶推荐的书《服侍可以不流泪》 。可怎么也找不到。便顺手拿了几本祷告的书 ，准备走的时候一位姐妹要我选一张挂历，我便祈祷：求主将祂要告诉我的话启示给我。于是，我得到了
当用各样的智慧，把基督的道理丰丰富富的存在心里 ，用诗章、颂词 、灵歌，彼此教导，彼此劝戒 ，心被恩感，歌颂神 。（西3：16）
晚上 ，我在静静的看《如何为你的丈夫祷告》、《如何为你的孩子祷告》，我也终于知道了我的问题出在何处了 。所有不如意的地方，皆是我没有去祷告的。
于是 ，那天晚上，我向神认罪，我说我要把自己完完全全的交给神，求神将我一切的自私、无知 、罪过挪去 ，让我能够成为一个全新的人。一个可以做丈夫的帮助者、做孩子的陪伴者、做神的同工的人。然后，我为孩子们祷告：将孩子交给神，因为神更加的知道孩子真正的需要 ，愿神美好的旨意成全在孩子的身上；我为先生祷告：求主带领他时时与主同在，保守他的工作 、保守他得享成功的喜悦；也为我们的婚姻祷告：求主赐我们彼此吸引彼此忠诚......
那天晚上，我祷告了很久 ，把家人一个个交托，把自己也完全的敞开在主的面前 。祷告结束后，我一下子感觉轻松极了。身体状况也开始好了 ，甚至一点儿也没有了因血压过低而产生的不适了。
最奇妙的是：第二天接到先生的电话，他的声音变的特别新奇 。像曾经我们在热恋中一般的声音。而不是平日里那种例行公事般的问候。而孩子们，那份特别的喜乐的流露也让我感觉到惊奇 。
How wonderful traffic with God? Perhaps, you don't care, it is difficult to believe. In fact, even if you understand, it may be difficult to describe it in words. Because language always has too many bondage, only the feelings of your heart are the most authentic and most moving. May I love our God will give peace to all the children seeking His children!What kind of situation I can't fall in those days? For Christmas ministry, your body is tired. I feel that all the same workers don't understand, don't support, and even I am blowing me. I seem to have no Lord, I have no thoughts, I have no mind, even even meet with my brothers and sisters. I would rather escape and let myself put everything down. But the more you want to put down, your more you can't let go. Every day, in addition to going to work, I seem to have been troubled by such a melancholy. I don't know what to do, I am praying: Lord, ask you to help me come out. However, the main seems to ignore me, let me struggle in the vortex. My heart is getting more and more. I feel that I am abandoned by God. It is completely complained to others to complain. It seems that this the most poor person in the world is me, and other people have a mistake, only I am right.
Then the mother went out on Christmas, and then made me angry because of my husband's attitude, and then injured every day for my physical condition ...
Those days, simply It became the end of the world. Every time I read the comfort of my brothers and sisters, I can't help but tears. But I have no way to go out. I thought that time long, I can forget everything, even no longer need. But I will see this information, I will still be heartache, still will reproduce the past scene countless times. God said that we must learn to be tolerant, forgiveness, but I really can't do it.
That day, the same trade union. Arrange a new year. I didn't say it, I didn't respond to my arrangement. Just think about how to escape early.The next day, it is Sunday. Go to the church, I am going to find a book recommended by the crystal, "can't tears". I can't find it. I took a few prayer books. When I was ready to go, I would like to choose a calendar. I prayed that I would like to tell me about tell me. inYes, I got
When using the wisdom, the truth of Christ is rich in the rich existence, with poetry, praise, spiritual song, to each other, persuading each other, heart, praise God. (West 3:16)
Thank the Lord, suddenly, I feel that I understand what should I do this year. Then, that day, I accepted my new job: led the prayer group.
In the evening, I am quietly watching "How to Pray for your husband", "How to pray for your child", I finally know where my problem is. All wonderful places are all I have not prayed.
So, that night, I was sinned to God. I said I would give myself to God. Ask God to all selfish, ignorant, sin, let me be a new People. A helper that can be a husband, be a companion of the child, and people who are doing God. Then, I will pray for the children: give the child to God, because God adds to the true need, I hope that God is a good will be all in the child; I pray for Mr.: Seeking the Lord to lead him always, Conservative, keep him to enjoy the joy of success; also pray for our marriage: seeking the owner to attract each other with each other ...
That night, I prayed for a long time, put my family One of the trusted, open yourself all in front of the main. After the end of the prayer, I feel easy at once. The physical condition has also begun, even a little does not have an unaffected due to the low blood pressure.
The most wonderful thing is that the second day received a special new quarter of his voice. Like we used to be in love in love. Not the next day, the routine greetings. And the children, the freewhesis of the special joy made me feel surprised.The feeling, it is really unable to express it with pale words. In short, I will live, everything is developing in the direction of my prayer.
Thank you! The must have complete achievements! How wonderful this is!
Thank you! Because you have been accompanying me, I have never been left. Just I amI have never isolated from.
Thank you! Leading me step by step, so that I can spend safely when I face this!
In the new year, I would like to completely have a complete intersession of myself in the hands of the Lord. May the Lord's will be fully in our body, may the Lord to use us, the servant of you, and work!
New year, I hope the Lord leads the child daily prayer and the main traffic to get the unexpected peace and joy of the Master!
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