“ 咱们班的男的又在发疯了” ，教室里的美女们在感叹着 。
我们班上三十几个人，只有七个男生。这一团男人们凑在一起，不分彼此 ，好事一起做，坏事一起干。所以老师们谈论起来的时候，没有说是哪一个人 ，而是说“这一帮男的…… ”
刚在一起的时候，大家相处的比较融洽，但只是普通朋友的层次 。随着逐渐的熟悉 ，了解。我们已经像一家人一样，大声笑，大声骂，大声的唱着那不良的舍歌 ，我们之间根本没有秘密。
我们经常每晚趴在床上，嘀咕着学校里的女生，有爱的 ，有骂的，有害羞的，有不屑的 。
渐渐地 ，春天来了，小伙子们恋爱了。在宿舍里真假参半的吹嘘着，惹得几个还单身的是羡慕 ，嫉妒，恨。当然，还有不知真假的清高（扫平） 。我也是属于这单身的中间 ，听着他们的甜蜜心中有那么丝丝羡慕，总是幻想和那个她相守一生，酸甜与共。我常常在他们面前鼓吹着：将来我找到一个，肯定就是一辈子……
她长得并不漂亮 ，身材也不好，唯一突出的是，她特别高 。和她站在一起 ，有时候我真觉得他比我高。
我们两家是在一条路上的两个村，所以经常会一起等车。这个周的周末，等车的时候她告诉我 ，她的前男友还在缠着她，就算她决意分开也还是要缠着 。一向讲究以理服人的我当时不知道为什么，就想直接冲过去揍那小子一顿。她拦住我叫我不要冲动……
回到家 ，本想打听一下那小伙的信息，可是她告诉我交给她解决，我也只好作罢。虽然不太情愿，但也只好如此 。可是搞笑的是 ，这个小伙不知在哪里得到了我的QQ号，加上了我，不住的叫我放手 ，甚至说出了接吻，忍无可忍的我，终于动了粗话 ，小伙马上摆出一副死猪不怕开水烫的摸样，我真是又好气又好笑。我把聊天的截图发给了宿舍的哥们们，他们看完后很气愤的要了小伙子的QQ号 ，对我说：不用担心，开学了咱们找他解决解决，胖子 ，你只要认准了这个女人，哥们都会帮你的。那晚，我一直都很兴奋，因为我感受到了一种前所未有的感动 。
事情解决的很顺利 ，在感受到实实在在的威胁后，小伙问我是不是找人了，我告诉他我只把聊天记录发到了群里 ，至于谁找你，要干什么跟我就没什么关系了。小伙听完立刻就软了，让我再给他一次机会 ，我寻思反正也没什么风险也为了让他彻底死心，在征求过她的同意后我答应了他。结果，和预料中的一样 。
以后日子 ，再没有了障碍之后我们相处的还算甜蜜。但是因为在学校所以不敢太过张扬，相比较之下还算是比较低调。每天吃饭的时候见一面，课外活动的时候说说话 ，晚上送她回宿舍然后回到自己宿舍吹嘘。虽说单调，但对于初开情愫的我却也足够了 。
时间很快，一个多月后，我工作了。因为会有很长时间不能见面 ，所以心中 都有点失落，每天只有手机联系。每天不是短信发到空间已满便是电话打到停机 。
她开始过度的敏感，怀疑我和某某某怎么怎么样。起初我以为是太在乎我 ，心里还有点小感动。可是渐渐地我发现，她怀疑的对象越来越匪夷所思，甚至怀疑到了我最好的朋友身上 。那个朋友 ，是我上学时认得姐姐，那时，我是很内向 ，一直都活在自己的世界里，一个人，没什么朋友 ，可以说是她以姐姐般的呵护，是我的心渐渐的打开。我一直把她看做亲人。当怀疑的对象变成她以后，我当时很生气，斥责了她 ，告诉她以后不要再说了 。可是她却越来越变本加厉，忍无可忍之下，我只好将她和的前二任男友也做这样的怀疑 ，目的是让她将心比心就此作罢，可是事与愿违，结果却是我们之间充斥着越来越多的不信任。。 。。。
要调职了 ，说好是一月二十二号去报到的，可是离情人节只有两天，我一直在拖着 ，就是想和她过完这第一个情人节，我怕她担心，就告诉她一些手续还没办好 ，要等到情人节以后。
二十三号，我准备了好多的东西，准备第二天和她好好庆祝 。晚上，QQ ，一个人加了我，问了我好多奇怪的问题，直觉告诉我 ，这个人跟她有关系。问过之后，我知道了，他便是之前所提到的前二任男友 ，知道答案后我释然了，他们已经是过去了，尽管和他交谈中 ，他所表现出得种种想和她重归于好，但我却很淡然的回复了他，我告诉他 ，我相信我们之间的感情，如果你还有不舍，你可以去问问她同意你们重新在一起么，如果她同意 ，如果她觉得和你在一起幸福，那么我不会拦着的，我会祝福你们 ，但是如果他不同意你还要缠着的话，那么我会不客气的，说到底 ，那是我的女人。
过了几刻钟 ，她跟我说：能求你件事么，但你不要生气 。我说你说吧。“我明天的情人节能和他一起过么，我想补偿他…… ”霎时间，我就觉得一股冷气从头走到脚 ，心里绞似的疼，只感觉一种情感似洪水般冲击者心门，这份情感叫 ，委屈。
此时我已经红了眼睛，出去用凉水洗了把脸，仰望着星空 ，良久，我回到电脑旁，我说“你去吧 ，我不拦你，只要你觉得好就行，不必管我. ”我不知道我是在和谁较劲 ，心里一百个不愿意但却总希望她可以在我的角度上多为我想想，哪怕就那么几次，也就足够了 。
我告诉她我困了，刚收到通知明天去报到要早睡。她问我明天几点走 ，去送我。我告诉她不必了，好好准备一下明天可是要出去的啊 。她还一直追问，我告诉她 ，最早那班车。
情人节，早上，车中 ，我一直没有说话，我不知道应该说些什么。我在赌博，在赌她的心思 ，我的心里一点底都没有 。我不知道怎么去面对自己的女人去和别的男人情人节那天成双入对……
我怕我控制不住情绪，挂掉了电话。我的身体在不断地颤抖着。去买了包烟，抖动着大口的吸着 ，一根，又一根 。为了她戒掉的烟又一次为了她拾起来，我不知道这是犯贱还是愚蠢。总之 ，我想把自己麻痹，忘却那尖刀刺心般的痛。
作贱自己的后果便是如死泥般的躺在床上，没吃饭 ，没喝水，没脱衣服就到了第二天的早上 。
在以后的日子里，每天都要工作到焦头烂额 ，下班后总觉得似乎是在盐水里泡过似的，总觉得好累。只身一人来到一个环境，没有一个熟人，甚至大部分个都不是本地人 ，在如此渴求温暖的时候，却是我们之间矛盾最白热化的时候。几乎每次通话都要吵架，而吵架的原因却还是对姐怀疑 ，每次听到这里我总觉得一阵恶心，很生气的吵了起来，这期间还经历了几次分手 ，就这样心力交瘁的我濒临崩溃的边缘 。又一次激烈的争吵之后，她对我提出了分手，我告诉她不要再闹了 ，我很累。这一次她异常的坚决，挂掉电话之后她便把我拖入了黑名单，之后的电话总是无法接通。
我困惑 ，迷惘，愤怒 。我不敢相信我曾以为这坚不可摧的感情，会在子虚乌有的事情上土崩瓦解。
头，撕裂般的疼，沉在枕头里就觉得不停地往下坠 ，没有尽头 。胸口，似乎变成了真空，蜷缩着身子以减缓那窒息般的痛。手里 ，那烟烧灼出钻心的疼，扔的掉烟头却仍不掉那两指间的伤。
在之后的很长时间里我习惯了在下班之后喝点酒，不为别的只为那睡着时的隐隐头疼 ，以便不会在梦中见到。强制着自己忘掉她，去发现根本没有任何的方法 。只要想起她，那血管里的血便会冲至大脑 ，根本无法做到冷静。
因为是该开始学习，而且一个人要做几个人的活，所以会经常做错，再加上副经理的脾气极差 ，导致的结果是我每天会被骂的很惨。好在一段时间以后，从学校里又陆续来了两名同学，在工作之余便有了玩伴 。
有一天 ，三个人在一起闲聊，各自说起了自己工作时的挨骂的经过，结果却发现三个人几乎是一样的 ，这也使我们在背后偷偷地痛骂副经理。
日子在忙碌与骂声中过的越来越烦躁，每天都想着有机会能够另找份工作离开。终于有一天学校主任打电话给我，说是另给我找到了一份工作 ，让我考虑考虑 。我大喜过望，刚准备答应老师告诉我她也在那里。我愣住了，告诉老师说是考虑一下。
晚上 ，坐在楼前的的台阶上，看着天上的点点的星辰，静静地思索着 。良久，风起。裹了裹外衣 ，踩灭了烟头，起身回屋，我已经想明白了 ，去吧，做个了结……
第二天做好手续，晚上下班后坐着公司的车 ，拿着我的铺盖就来到新的地方。那天她不在，只有一个大姐在那，我要了宿舍钥匙 ，回去了就睡了，这一天，很累 。
早上起来 ，就开始收拾昨天大姐告诉我的卫生区，去洗拖把的时候，遇见了她，低头 ，走过，无语。
在一起的人，如果没什么感情 ，那分开以后，还会和朋友般自由地交谈。可是动了情，分开以后再相见会及其的尴尬 ，不知道，应该以什么身份，态度来交谈。
也不知道领导是不是故意捉弄我 ，每次干活总是让我们两个在一起干 。
渐渐地，我们开始说话，我想做成朋友避免以后见面尴尬也不错。但是看见她一天十几通电话 ，和她说话时故意发出很嗲的声音，我总觉得很反感和恶心。我努力地告诉自己，这已经跟自己没有关系了 。但不知怎的，每每听到那种说话的声音 ，总是很恼火，她以前不是这样的啊。。 。。
我的只要工作是看守娱乐中心里的舞厅，音响 ，灯光，控制设备，卫生。刚开始学习的时候那么的线路 ，我看了都两眼昏花 。但学习的时间慢慢长了以后，我发现这就是一个大号的玩具，于是小时候拆装东西的恶兴趣就上来了 ，成天钻到控制室里，玩的是不亦乐乎。渐渐地，就弄明白了里面的原理 ，而且时常锁上门，打着调试音响的名头，在里面唱着那恶心的令人不死不休的歌。
一天下班以后，她对我说想要唱歌 ，能不能把舞厅开开 。我答应了，那天，她唱了个通宵。凌晨的时候 ，我走出去，看见两把椅子拼凑在一起，她就蜷缩在椅子上。我回屋拿了被子和大衣 ，盖在她的身上，看着她熟睡时的恬静，我轻吻了她的脸颊 ，然后转身回屋。
回到房间，怎么也睡不着了，我知道 ，我陷进去了 。对于我这种人一旦动了感情就很难从里面出来，巨蟹座，是个可怜的星座，一直包着硬硬的壳 ，不让人走入内心，一旦对谁打开了，里面的柔弱一丝不剩全都暴露了出来 ，这是挥舞着钳子耀武扬威的蟹子就会变成一只粘人的犬仔。
第二天，我问她如果我说我们和好，你会怎样 ，她回答“不知道 ”“不知道？什么意思？你可以说行也可以说不行，不知道？算是什么回答”
之后又有几次讨教无果后，我没有再问。因为我知道 ，这只是在她那样的回答只是在敷衍 。
闲来无事 ，在网上查出了那首歌，戴上耳机，却完全听不出我所认为的悲怆 ，相反，甚至还有一点欢快。原来，这一小段的插曲被我当成了主旋律……
很快 ，几天之后，她就领着她的男友在上网，很理所当然的 ，我变成了前男友 。不过此时我很淡然了，当一份姑且算是爱情的路走到死胡同的时候，身后是一帮真心的朋友 ，人生的路很长，女人可以没有，但朋友兄弟不能没有，那个女人 ，只是人生里的一段插曲，而兄弟和亲人则是人生的主旋律。
深夜 ，思绪，无眠 。一夜之间懂了很多。雨过，日出 ，未来。以后我会是怎样 。人总会成长，但过程很艰难。...
Outside the trend of the wind, often through the window, and there is also the song that is not tuned."The men in our class is crazy", the beauty in the classroom is sigh.
More than 30 people in our class, only seven boys. This group of men came together, regardless of each other, good things, doing bad things together. So when the teacher talks about it, it doesn't say it. It is said that "this gang is male ..."
When you just together, everyone is more harmonious, but only ordinary friends level. With the gradual familiarity, understand. We are already like a family, smile loudly, loudly, sing the bad songs, there is no secret between us.
We often kneel in bed every night, and we have a girl in the school, there is love, there is a scream, it is shy, disdainful.
Gradually, spring came, the young men were in love. In the hustle and fake half of the dormitory, it is envious, embarrassing, hate. Of course, there is also a high high (sweep) of true and false. I also belong to this single, listening to their sweet heart, there is so silky, always fantasy and that she stays, sweet and shame. I often drive in front of them: I found one in the future, definitely a lifetime ...
There is also the same idea, there is Lei
that day, Singles Day The second month, in a lot of unknown "coincidence", I extracted a bachelor hat with 18 years. That person has been called "* sister".
She is not beautiful, the body is not good, the only outstanding thing is that she is particularly high. I stood with her, sometimes I really felt that he was higher than me.
The two of our two are two villages on a road, so they often wait together. On the weekend of this week, she told me when she was waiting for the car. She was still entangled with her, even if she decided to separate. I always pay more attention to the person, I didn't know why, I wanted to rush to the boy. She stopped me told me not to be impulsive ...
Go home, I want to inquire about the man's letterInterest, but she told me to give her to solve it, I have only done. Although I am not willing, I have this. But the funny thing is that this guy won't know where to get my QQ number, plus me, I can't help me let go, even say that I kiss, I can't bear it, I finally moved, the guy put a pair right away. Dead pigs are not afraid of boiling water, I am really good and funny. I sent the screenshot of the chat to the dormitory. After they finished reading, I was very angry to have a young man's QQ number. I said to me: I don't have to worry, I have to find him to solve the solve, fat, you just want this Women, buddies will help you. That night, I have been very excited because I feel an unprecedented touch.
After the thing is solved, after feeling the real threat, the guy asked me if I was looking for someone, I told him that I only sent the chat record to the group, as for who I found you, I have nothing to do with me. The guys will be soft, let me give him a chance, I think it is no longer risks anyway, I have been completely dead, I promised him after the consent of her. As a result, as expected.
After the day, we have a sweetness after we have no obstacles. But because of the school, I don't dare to be too guilty, and it is still a relatively low-key. Seeing a side when you eat every day, when you have an extra-class event, you will send her back to the dormitory at night and then return to your dormitory boast. Although monotonous, I am also enough for the first time.
Time is fast, after more than a month, I work. Because I will not meet for a long time, I have a little lost, and I only have mobile contacts every day. Every day is not a text message to space is full, it is a call to stop.
In the seemingly sweet appearance, the crisis has gradually come ...
She started excessive sensitivity, doubting me and a certain how. At first I thought it was too care, I was very touched in my heart. But I gradually discovered that she suspected the object more and more incredible, even suspicious of my best friend. That friend, I got my sister when I was going to school. At that time, I was very inoperative, I have been living in my own world, alone, no friend, can say that she is with my sister.The good care is my heart gradually open. I have always regarded her as a relative. When the suspected object became her, I was very angry at the time and rebuked her, telling her not to say anymore. However, she is getting more and more, I can't bear it, I have to do this with the first two boyfriends, the purpose is to let her make her heart, but the matter is violent, the result is the more and more Many don't trust. . . . .
To be transferred, it is said that it is reported by the 22nd of January 22, but only two days from Valentine's Day, I have been dragging, just want to over, I have finished this Valentine's Day. I am afraid that she is worried, telling her that some procedures have not yet been good, wait until Valentine's Day.
23, I have prepared a lot of things, ready for the next day and she celebrates. In the evening, QQ, a person added me, asked me a lot of strange problems, Intuitive telling me that this person has a relationship with her. After I asked, I know, he is the first two boyfriends mentioned before, I know after the answer, they are already in the past, although he talks with him, he has repeatedly returned to her Ok, but I have a very light reply to him, I tell him, I believe in the feelings between us, if you still have no, you can ask her to agree that you will get together, if she agrees, if she agreed I feel happy with you, then I won't stop, I will bless you, but if he does not agree with you, then I will be welcome, say, is my woman.
As a result, he told me that I won't bother us again, but please don't let her ignore him, I agree, and even do a friend, I just want to tell her this: I believe in you ... ...
After a few times, she said with me: Can you ask you, but you don't be angry. I said you said. "I will live with him tomorrow, I want to compensate for him ..." Time, I think a cold air walks from the beginning, the pain in my heart, I only feel a kind of emotionally impact , This emotion called, wronged.
A few minutes I asked her. "If you have changed today, how do you change?" She said, "I may leave you ..."
At this time, I have already red eyes, Go out with cool water, look up at the starry sky, for a long time, IGo back to the computer, I said, "You go, I don't stop you, as long as you feel good, don't worry me." I don't know who I am in my heart, my heart is not willing but I always hope she can In my angle, I think about me, even if it is as many times, it is enough.
I told her that I was sleepy. I just received the notice to go to tomorrow to pay early. She asked me to go tomorrow, send me. I tell her that it is not necessary, I am ready to go out tomorrow. She has been asking, I told her, the first bus.
Valentine's Day, in the morning, in the car, I have not speaking, I don't know what to say. I am gambling, gambling her mind, my heart is not. I don't know how to face my own woman to go to other men Valentine's Day, I have been diverse ...
The day is over, I am so happy to pick up the phone want to tell her every day. I heard, I heard the whistle sound in my microphone, my heart is tight, ask: Where are you? "Just send ***, now I am going home"
I lost ... I lost very badly.
"Oh, is it! That's like this, I am a bit tired ..."
I am afraid that I can't control my emotions and hang it. My body is constantly trembling. I went to buy a smoky, shaking the sucking, one, and another. For her, the smoke she quits it again for her, I don't know if this is a guilty or stupid. In short, I want to give myself to myself, forget the pile pain.
The consequence of his own is like a dead mud lying on the bed, did not eat, did not drink water, did not take off the next morning.
In the next day, we must work to the focus every day. After get off work, I always feel that it seems to be in the salt water, I always feel so tired. I only came to an environment, there is no acquaintance, and even most of them are not local people. When you are eager to warm, it is the contradiction between us. Almost every call, the reason for the quarrel is still skeptical, every time I heard that I always feel disgusting, very angry, I have experienced a few breakups, I have experienced me. On the verge of crash. After another fierce quarrel, she put forward meHand, I told her not to make any more, I am very tired. This time she is very resolute, she dragged me into the blacklist after she hangs away, and the next phone can always be connected.I am confused, fascinated, angry. I can't believe that I have thought that this is an indestructible feeling, it will be in the things of Ziwu.
I don't know if she is a neurotic guess, but I feel boring after my feelings. In short, we are separated ...
Head, the torn pain, I feel that I can't fall down in the pillow, there is no end. The chest, it seems to become vacuum, curled with the body to slow the suffocation. In your hand, the smoke burned out the pain of the drill heart, but the smoking head threw the smoked head still did not fall into the injury between the two fingers.
After a long time I used to drink some wine after get off work, don't be a faint headache when I fell asleep, so that I will not see it in my dreams. Forgetting her forgetting her, I found that there is no way at all. Just think of her, the blood in the blood vessel will rush to the brain, and it can't be calm.
Because it is to start learning, and one person wants to do a few people, it will often do something wrong, plus the temper of the deputy manager, the result is that I will be very miserable every day. . After a while, two students have come from school, and there is a play partner in the work.
One day, three people chatted together, and each said, the result of 挨 挨 骂,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, .
The days are getting more and more irritating in a busy and screaming, and every day, I think that there is an opportunity to find another job. Finally, one day the school teacher called me, saying that I found a job, let me consider. I am very happy, just prepared to agree to the teacher told me that she is there. I was stunned, telling the teacher that I think about it.
At night, sitting on the stairs in front of the floor, looking at the little star in the sky, quietly thinking. For a long time, the wind strokes. Wrapped in the outerwear, stepped on the cigarette, got up and returned home, I have already understood it, go, do a knot ...
Do a good job in the next day, take the company in the evening, take the company, take InMy laying came to the new place. She is not there, only a big sister is there, I want to have a dormitory key, I will sleep, this day, very tired.
When I got up in the morning, I started to clean up yesterday, my big sister told my health district. When I went to wash the mop, I met her, bowing, walking, speechless.People together, if there is no feelings, then it will talk freely with friends. But it is moving, and it will meet again in the next place, I don't know, what I should talk to.
I don't know if the leader is deliberately taught me. Every time I don't have two together.
Gradually, we started talking, I want to make friends to avoid being embarrassed in the future. But I saw her more than a dozen calls, and I deliberately made a very sound when I speaking, I always feel very disgusting and nausea. I tried to tell myself that this has not been related to myself. Somehow, every time I heard the voice of that kind of speech is always annoyed, she is not like this. . . .
My job is to guard the ballroom in the entertainment center, audio, lighting, control equipment, hygiene. When I first started learning, then the route, I saw two eyes fainting. But after learning, I found that this is a large toy, so I have been a bad interest in the disassembly, and I've been drilled into the control room. It is not easy to play. Gradually, I figured out the principle inside, and often lock the door, play the name of the debug sound, singing the disgusting song of disgusting.
After get off work in work, she said to me to sing, can open the dance hall. I promised, that day, she sang a lot. In the early morning, I went out and saw two chairs together, she curled up on the chair. I took the house and took the quilt and coat, covered on her, looked at the quiet when she was sleeping, I kissed her cheeks and turned back to the house.
When I returned to the room, I couldn't sleep, I knew, I fell in. It is difficult for me to come out once this kind of person, the giant crab is a poor constellation, and it has been a hard shell. It is not allowed to walk into the heart. Once who is open, the weakness inside is not All expose it, this isWaving the clamp Yaowu Yangwei's crab will become a sticky dog.
The next day, I asked her if I said we and good, what would you say "I don't know" "I don't know? What do you mean? You can say it can be said, don't know? What answer "
After some discipline, I didn't ask again. Because I know, this is just her answer is only in perfunctory.
In fact, she told me that I can't, I will immediately die, I will have a wound alone, I will not let anyone know ...
also picked the songs singing together in school Only a few words each time, but the sadness of the sorrow can imagine the song, must be very sad.
There is no one, I found the song on the Internet, wearing a headset, but I can't hear the sorrow I think, the opposite, even a little cheerful. It turned out that this small episode was regarded as the main melody ...
Soon, after a few days, she led her boyfriend in the Internet, it is a matter of course, I have become a former boyfriend. However, I was very little. When a woman, a husband came to death, it was a friend who was a true friend. Life is very long, the woman can not, but the friend brother can't, that woman, only An episode in life, and brothers and relatives are the main melody of life.
Now, you have already looked at you, and the episode of life has turned over, which is in the main melody of brothers and friends, I saw the cheerful life melody.
Late night, thoughts, sleep. I understand a lot overnight. Rain, sunrise, future. How will I be in the future. People always grow, but the process is very difficult. ...
The process of growing up, it is the result of impacting the soul countless times, and the result of growing up, it can resist the process of impacting the soul ...
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