缺爱的不孝顺孩子透心凉

作者:梁思南人气:275更新:2021-07-15 09:16:05

请不要说父母,不要说孝顺 ,因为我会泪流满面

不是我不孝顺,不是我不想父母,只是父母与我 ,没有太多的回忆

我是个孤单的孩子,从小到大,换句话 ,我是个缺爱的孩子

在我的记忆里,父母是每年只能见一次,一次在一起呆上20几天的人

在感情刚刚开始升温的时候马上又冷却

只是在电话里说着那几句很平常 ,很普通的话

记得小学6年级 ,爸妈给我写了封信,那时正是快中秋的时候,天快要转凉了

信的内容不多 ,写的稀松平常,结尾是:天变冷了,记得加衣服

那一刻 ,我哭了,很伤心很伤心的哭了,那股温暖 ,我永远留在心里

那封信,我一直留着,可是后来因为搬家 ,不知道丢哪去了

小学写作文,总是围绕爸爸妈妈的话题,那些作文都是我的想象 ,没有事实依据 ,我找不到写的内容,我讨厌那些作文课

我很少吃到爸妈炒的菜,更没有太多机会牵他们的手 ,连想象都是奢侈的,何以满足‘内容真实,感情真挚’?

我从不在别人面前提起他们 ,因为那是我的痛处,我不喜欢别人说起父母,那是会让我心乱的字眼

没有他们天天在身边的日子 ,或许因为时间的关系,我习惯了这种没有陪伴的生活,在过去的19年里

高考前 ,妈给我打电话说:“要不要我回去陪你走过高考的这一段? ”

我说:“不用了。”

妈说:“我们没有在你们身边,你们习惯了对吗?”

我没有犹豫的回答:“习惯了! ”

那一瞬,我明白 ,我错了 ,妈在那边沉默了

后来的一段时间,妈没有打电话来,我知道我伤了她的心

我又何尝不是呢 ,我无数次期盼,在我的成长过程中一路有你们的陪伴

有你们在生日的时候带我去买礼物,吃蛋糕 ,或者到肯德基吃“全家桶”

19年来,我的愿望没有一次实现过,即使在梦里 ,也是奢求

就像我希望我有仙女的魔棒和天使的翅膀,那是荒唐可笑的啊

有过那么一段时期,我特别想念他们

初中有一次 ,还没过年,他们回家来看我们,我破天荒的得到了除20天外的关怀

以前的我们即使在分别的时候 ,一句正式的道别话都没有

这次或许是太久没有感受这样的关爱 ,一时间贪婪起来,沉醉其中,无法自拔

所以那天放学回家 ,发现家里找不到他们时,我躲在后面的小花园里失声痛哭

那是第一次,我觉得自己根本就离不开他们

但是仅仅就那么几次 ,就像一年中流星划过夜空的次数

我们没有平常父母和子女间的默契

我们的感情平淡的就像白开水,平平淡淡,普普通通

尘封了19年的感情 ,又岂是一朝一夕可以唤醒的

那些年的空白,又怎么会因为20几天的相处,变得色彩斑斓 ,绚丽无比

有人说:“没有父母陪伴着成长的孩子,是有性格缺陷的 。”

也许是吧,尽管我的成长还有其他人陪伴 ,尽管我从来没有承认过

但在我心里的某个位置 ,是空的,很空很空,我想再也填不满 ,补不回来了

我不知道父母有什么喜好,就算是简单的习惯,我都无从知晓

他们也不理解我 ,一点都不了解,而我们彼此的生活环境,对方更是全然不知

我有时候想 ,我们身体里真的流着相同的血吗

但是有一点我信,那就是母女连心,有那么几次 ,我的心痛的厉害

后来证实的确是因为你们,你们扯痛了我的心,那一刻 ,我深刻的明白

我们的心是连在一起的 ,我们是无法分割的整体

时间一直流逝着,消失在看不见的四维空间

我慢慢长大,步入我人生的青春 ,走上我的花样年华

而他们,朝着和我相反的方向,走过中年 ,一步步迈向老年

我的变化永远赶不上他们的变化

这些年来,他们一直为了这个家努力着

从他们的青春年华到现在鬓染白霜

也许是我不懂事,也许是我过于懂事

可是不管怎样 ,事实就是我是个不孝顺的孩子

我没有尽过一点女儿应尽的责任,相反,还在心里埋怨他们

我有太多的不应该 ,有太多的奢求和渴望,有太多说不出口的对不起

我想时间会消除我们之间的鸿沟,缝合我们彼此的伤口

在未来的日子里 ,我们会像平常父女母女那样相处 ,还会更好的,我相信,我坚信

爸妈 ,我从来没有表达过心里对你们的情感

我也从来没有表达过我的感激之情

这么多年,谢谢你们,女儿已经长大了 ,懂事了

即使我拥有一个不完整,缺爱的童年,但我不怪你们 ,因为我也没有做好一个女儿该做的

爸妈,对不起,我爱你们

英译版本:

Please don't say parents, don't say filial piety, because I will tears full face

Not me not filial, I don't want my parents, just parents and me, there is not much memories

I am a lonely child, from a small to big, in other words, I am a lack of children

In my memory, parents can only see it once a year, staying together in a time. The heavens

When the feelings just started to heat up, it immediately cooled

Just talking in the phone, it is very common, very ordinary words

Remember the first 6th grade My parents wrote a letter to me. At that time, when I was in the Mid-Autumn Festival, I would have to turn cold in the sky

The letter is not much, the words are often written, the end is: the sky is cold, remember Add clothes

At that moment, I cried, very sad and sad, the stock warm, I will stay in my heart

The letter, I have been staying, but later because Moving, don't know where to lose

Primary school writing, always around Mom and Dad, those composition is my imagination, there is no factual basis, I can't find the content, I hate those composition Class

I rarely eat the parents and fried vegetables, and there is no more opportunities to hold their hands. Even the imagination is extravagant, why to meet the 'content true, sincere "?

I never mention them in front of others, because that is my pain, I don't like others to talk to my parents, that is, I will make my words

No them every day Day, perhaps because of time relationship, I am used to this kind of life, in the past 19 years

before the college entrance examination, Mom called me: "Do you want me to go back to accompany you through the college entrance examination This paragraph? "

I said:" No. "

Mom said:" We are not here, are you used to it? "

I don't Hesitating: "I am used to!"

That moment, I understand, I am wrong, my mother is silent there

After a while, Mom did not playTelephone, I know that I hurt her heart

Why don't you, I have a lot of expectations, in my growth process, you have your company

Have you in birthday Take me to buy a gift, eat a cake, or go to KFC to eat "full-family bucket"

19 years, my wish does not have a realization, even in the dream, it is also a luxury

Like I hope that I have a fairy's magic wand and angel's wings, that is ridiculous, it is ridiculous

I have been in that period, I especially miss them

once in junior high school, still in the New Year, They went home to see us, I got the situation in the world, the care of 20 days

We didn't have a formal saying, and there was no other than

this time. I haven't experienced such a care for a long time, greed for a time, indulge in it, I can't pull it from

so I went home that day, I found out them in the home, I hid in the back of the garden.

That is the first time, I feel that I will not leave them at all

, but only a few times, just like a meteor in the night sky

We don't The tacit understanding between ordinary parents and children

Our feelings are like white boiling water, flat, ordinary

dust seals 19 years of feelings, and it is a pleasant day to wake up

How can those years of gaps, how can they get along with more than 20 days, become colorful, beautiful

Some people say: "There is no parent to accompany the growing child, there is a personality defect. "

maybe, although there are other people with others, even though I have never recognized

, in my heart, it is empty, very empty , I want to fill it again, I can't make it back

I don't know what my parents have a preference, even if I have a simple habit, I have no knowledge of

They don't understand me, every point Don't understand, and our live environment, each other is completely unknown

I sometimes think, is our body really flowing the same blood?

But there is a little my letter, that is, mother and daughter, have a few times, my heartache Power

It was confirmed that it was indeed because of you, you taught my heart. At that moment, I deeply understand

Our heart is connected together, we are unable to divide the whole

Time has been passing, disappearing in the four-dimensional space

I slowly grow up, walk into my life youth, walk on my figure annual

and They, in the opposite direction, walk through middle-aged, step by step to the elderly

My changes will never catch up with their changes

Come all over the years, they have been working hard for this family

From their youth, China is now infending white cream

maybe I don't understand, maybe I am too sensible

But no matter what, the truth is that I am a mess Children

I didn't have a little daughter's responsibility. On the contrary, I still blame them in my heart

I have too much no, there are too many luxury and desire, there is too More sorry, I can't do it, I don't think there is time to eliminate the gap between us, stitching our wounds

In the future, we will get along with usual father and female It will be better, I believe, I firmly believe

parents, I have never expressed my feelings for your emotions

I have never expressed my gratitude

For so many years, thank you, my daughter has grown up, knowing things

Even if I have an incomplete, lack of childhood, I don't blame you, because I didn't do a daughter. What to do

Mom, I am sorry, I love you

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