. 再见,旧时光。宝儿

作者:梅一翔人气:156更新:2021-07-14 14:10:05

1.
午后的街头,我站在街边的对面看见了你。
你还是那样,紧身的黑色二道 ,牛仔裤,干净的白色板鞋 。
你的身后依然跟着两个小弟。
你走路的样子依旧那么痞子样。
长高了一点,晒得更黑了 。

2.
在我停下来看你的时候 ,你转头看到了我。
然后我转身,飞快的往旁边的家属楼跑。听见你在身后大声的喊我的名字 。
我躲进了停车场后面的那间小房子里,然后透过窗户看见你追了过来。
你在值班室前面停了下来 ,然后大声的喊我名字。“你出来啊!为什么躲我!你出来!”
你的声音好大,每一句都在撕扯着我的心 。好疼好疼。
楼上的住户在窗台上让你小声一点。然后我听见了玻璃被砸碎的声音,还有你的那句“操 你 妈 的闭嘴!”
呵呵 。你还是那么暴躁 。为了我可以不顾一切。
我靠着墙蹲了下来 ,听着你在外面不停的喊我名字,眼泪就掉了下来。

3.
我应该怎么形容你呢 。
个子挺高的。有点黑。瘦瘦的 。
那时侯全县城的学生几乎都听说过你。有一个吸毒的老妈。你打架很厉害,经常给学校惹事 。有一个词叫什么来着 ,闻风丧胆。
我记得曾经和你同班过 ,后来你被学校开除了。
你看 。如果不是后来。 我对你的记忆只有这么多。

4.
毕业的那天,回家的路上你在身后拍了我一下,然后用略带沙哑的声音说 。
“嘿 ,我们一起回家吧 。 ”
我觉得我向来是个胆大的女生,对于你并没有一丝的惧怕。
路上你突然跟我说了好多。我没有回避,听你说着关于你的家庭 ,和你的母亲的所有 。
你爸跟一个南方女人在床上亲热的时候被破门而入的你妈妈看见了,你的家庭从此破碎,你父亲留下了一笔钱走了 ,你妈开始吸毒,还患上了轻度的抑郁症。大概就是这样。
你说着这些的时候,眼神里露出来的黯然让我有一丝的心疼 。
然后你突然恢复了那种痞子样 ,笑着说。
还有啊,小妞,我喜欢你好几年了。要不是你一直跟那小子在一起 ,我早就把你拿下了 。据我所知你们今天拿毕业照的时候就分手了吧。 所以我的机会来了。


5.
听你说完这些我突然就笑了 ,“好啊 。”
我答应你是因为那一瞬间的感觉。但是我知道的,那种感觉不是爱。只是我出于对你的一种,嗯 ,怎么说,一种心疼 。
你高兴的把我抱起来转圈圈,那一刻你天真的像一个孩子 。我突然的就有点后悔了。
但是我不知道的是 ,如果当时我把后悔说出来了,也许不会把你再次推向万劫不复的深渊。

6.
和你在一起的日子挺开心的,特别有安全感 ,你也不再打架了,脾气改了好多 。
天天被那些人嫂子嫂子的叫着,心里有特别暖。
我也慢慢的找到了爱你的感觉 ,像每一个合格的女朋友一样做着该做的。
中途有一次你带我回你们家见了你妈妈 。
她看起来很正常,对我也和蔼可亲的,特别热情 ,看起来一点也不像吸毒的人。
只是你永远不知道的 ,她在你出去之后对我露出了怎样的恶毒。
一开始她还笑着跟我说让我离开你,有一个富家女特别喜欢你,你和她在一起更相配 ,说着说着,她的眼神里开始流露出狠毒“你要是不离开他我吸毒的钱就没有了,剩下的时间里我会让他痛不欲生 ,他很孝顺的 。你自己考虑清楚吧。哈哈哈哈。”
我不得不承认,我被她的眼神吓到了 。同样的,我也被她的话吓到了。

7.
有一次我们一起去郊区的河里抓鱼 ,我不小心滑进河水里,然后你飞快的从岸上跳下来紧紧的抱着我说“你吓死我了! ”我突然就笑了。
“你看这水才这么浅,死不了啦” ,你还是没有放开我 “你要是出事了,我会后悔一辈子的 。”
我像是突然的清醒了,想起你妈妈跟我说的话 ,挣开你的怀抱说“我想回去一个人静一静 。 ”

8.
我的录取通知书刚好到了。是离这座城市很远的一个地方。
收拾好了行李 ,发了一条短信给你,然后把卡掰成两半,扔出了窗外 。
“我知道说对不起很贱 ,可是我还是要说,或许一开始我们就错了,谢谢你这么用力的爱 ,我不想给你更大的伤害,对不起,我一直在努力。”
然后我离开了。我就这样傻傻的离开了 。
都说女人在恋爱的时候智商为零 ,我想或许我是的。
我担心她会跟你以死相逼,我担心你为了我受苦,我担心你我担心你 ,担心如果我没有离开,她会做出怎样的事情来。
毒瘾发作的时候,什么都是有可能的 。你说是吧。

9.
我就这样离开了。你看 ,我的离开多平静 。
但是我并不知道的事情是 ,我走之后你又开始一蹶不振。
你妈愁着自己没有钱去吸毒,对你又打又骂“那个小婊子有什么好留恋的,你快去给我找钱啊 ,你去啊!”
你听了之后反手扇了你妈一巴掌,在她愣在原地的时候从床底下拿出好几袋白粉摔在她面前“你抽啊,抽死你算了! ”
你妈听完这些话彻底的失去理智了 ,冲到厨房拿着菜刀砍掉了自己的右手。然后把那只手扔在你身上,眼前一黑,就倒在你面前 。

10.
我是一年后才知道这些事情的 。暑假放假回到了这座城市 ,朋友告诉我的。
听说你母亲被送到戒毒所去了。你跟你的朋友承包下了县上的度假村,只是你一直没有找女朋友 。而我亦是单身。
我没有过多的描述自己的心情,那是一种说不出来的痛苦。
这一年里很多个夜晚我都从梦中惊醒 ,你母亲的那种眼神深深的刻在了我心里 。
我无时无刻不在担心你,同时又在安慰自己。生活的有多煎熬只有自己知道。
现在朋友的话像一把刺刀,又一次刺痛了我的心 。

11.
时间回到现在。
我听见外面你的声音越来越小 ,偷偷的看了你一眼 ,你竟然坐在地上抹眼泪,那么让人心疼。
我可以确定当时的我心软了,在决定要走出去面对你的时候 。 你的小弟把你拉走了。
你就那样走了。没有了高大的背影 ,没有了你走路的风格,像一个病人一样,被旁边的人搀扶着 ,离开了 。一步一步的离开了我的生活 。
看着你远去的背影,我终于开始歇斯底里的哭。


“对不起。浩南 。对不起。”






12.
见到你那次之后我感觉自己一夜之间长大了。
我开始学会平静的过自己的生活 。
一个人吃饭,一个人逛街 ,一个人听歌,一个人睡觉。
我开始学着照顾自己。
在不久之后找了一个新的男朋友开始了全新的生活 。
因为我知道你的生活也日渐的趋于平静。
我们各自安好。这才是给彼此的最大的幸福 。



再见,浩南。
再见 ,旧时光。

 

英译版本:

1.

The streets of the afternoon, I stand on the opposite side of the street. I saw you.
You still have the same, two black two, jeans, clean white shoes.
You still follow two younger brother behind you.
The look of you is still like it.
He has a big greater, and the sun is too dark.
2.
When I stopped and see you, you turned to see me.
Then I turned and fooled to the family of the family next to them. I heard your name loudly behind him.
I hid into the small house behind the parking lot, and then saw you chasing it through the window.
You stopped in front of the duty room, then shouted my name loudly. "You come out! Why do you hide! You come out!"
Your voice is big, every sentence is torn my heart. It hurts it.
Households upstairs let you make a little bit on the window sill. Then I heard the voices of the glass, and your sentence "fuck your mother's shuttered!"
Oh. You are still so violent. In order to I can care about everything.
I looked down at the wall, listening to you, I can't call my name outside, tears dropped.
3.
How should I describe you?
The one is quite high. A bit black. skinny.
At that time, the students in Houquan County have almost heard of you. A mother with a drug. You are very powerful, often giving the school. There is a word called, and hesites.
I remember that I have passed with you, and later you are expelled by the school.
You see. If not later. I have only so much memory for you.
4.
On the day of graduation, I took me behind the way, and then said with a slightly hoarse voice.
"Hey, let's go home together."
I think I am a bold girl, there is no fear of you. "
You suddenly told me a lot with me. I didn't avoid it, listening to you, talking about your family, and all your mother.
Your dad follows a southern woman in bedWhen you were broken, your mother saw it, your family was broken, your father left a money, your mother started drug abuse, and also suffered mild depression. Probably this is the case.
When you talk about these, the eyes of the eyes have come out, let me have a distressed.
Then you suddenly recovered the kind of scorpion, smiled and said.
Also, Xiao Giu, I like you for several years. If you have been with the kid, I have long won you. As far as I know, I will break up when I take a graduation photo today. So my opportunity is coming.

5.
I heard that these I suddenly laughed, "Okay."
I promise you because of the feeling of the moment. But I know, that feeling is not love. Just I am a kind of kind, um, how to say, a distressed.
You are happy to take me up and turn circle, and you are really like a child. I suddenly regret it.
But I don't know, if I regret it, I may not put you again to the abyss of the people.
6.
It is very happy with your days together, especially sense of security, you no longer fight, temper has changed much.
Everyday was called by those people's nephew, there was a very warm in my heart.
I also slowly find the feeling of love you, doing it like every qualified girlfriend.
There is a midway. You take me back to your family.
She looks normal, I am also amiable, particularly enthusiastic, it looks like a person who is also like drug users.
Just you never know, she has exposed me after you go out.
At the beginning, she laughed with me to tell me to leave you, there is a rich woman who likes you, you and she are more matching together, talking, her eyes begin to reveal the poison "You don't If you leave him, I don't have to make him feel unhappy. He is very filial. You think about it yourself. Hahahaha. "
I have to admit that I was scared by her eyes. Arrived. Similarly, I was scared by her.
7.
Once we went to the river in the suburbs, I accidentally slipped into the river, then you jumped from the shore and hugging me. "You scared me!" I suddenly laughed.
"You watch this water is so shallow, you can't die", you still haven't let me "" You have something, I will regret for a lifetime. "
I am like a sudden awake, think of your mother To tell me, earn your embrace saying "I want to go back to a person quiet."

8.
My admission notice is just arrived. It is a place far from this city.
Packed up the baggage and sent a text message to you, then put the card in half, throwing out the window.
"I know that I am sorry very embarrassing, but I still have to say, maybe we are wrong, thank you for your love, I don't want to give you more harm, sorry, I have been working hard."
Then I left. I am so silly.
Every time the woman is zero when the woman is in love, I think maybe I am.
I am worried that she will work with you, I am worried that you are worried about me, I am worried that you are worried about you, worry if I have not left, what kind of thing she will make.
When the drug addiction is sent, everything is possible. Am I right.
9.
I will leave. You look, my leave are more calm.
But what I don't know is that after I am, you start there.
Your mother is inheriting that you don't have money to take drugs, and you are fighting for you, "There is a good night, you will give me money, you go!"
After you listen The anti-hand fan, your mother, one slap, took a few bags of white powder from the bed when she was in the same place, "You smoked, smash you!"
Your mother is completely After losing reason, rushed to the kitchen to take a knife and cut off his right hand. Then throw the hand on you, and in front of you, you will fall in front of you.
10.
I know these things a year later. After the summer vacation, I returned to this city, and my friend told me.
I heard that your mother was sent to the drug rehabilitation. You are under the county with your friends.The resort, but you have not been looking for a girlfriend. And I am also single.
I didn't have too much to describe my mood, it is a pain that can't be said.
I am awaken in my dreams in this year. Your mother's kind of eye is deeply engraved in my heart.
I am not worried about you, and I am comforting myself. There is a lot of life, only you know yourself.
Nowadays, the words of friends are like a staby, and I have stab my heart again.
11.
Time is now.
I heard that your voice is getting smaller and smaller, secretly read you, you actually sit on the ground and tears, so people distressed.
I can determine that my heart is soft, when I decide to go out to face you. Your younger brother took you away.
You will go. Without a tall back, there is no style of walking, like a patient, the people next to him help, leave. Step by step and left my life.
Looking at the back of you, I finally started crying in hysteria.

"Sorry. Hao Nan. Sorry."



12.
Seeing you I feel that I have grown up overnight.
I started learning to calm down my life.
A person dinner, a person shopping, a person listening to the song, a person sleeping.
I started learning to take care of yourself.
Soon, I found a new boyfriend and started a new life.
Because I know that your life is getting more calm.
We have their own good. This is the greatest happiness to each other.


Goodbye, Haoan.
Goodbye, old time.


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