镜花水月般的爱情听涛

作者:乔欣灵人气:188更新:2021-07-13 07:38:04

 镜花水月般的爱情
          或许一开始的相识 ,就注定了是一份虚无飘渺的情缘,镜花水月是她的网名,她是那么的清秀 、温婉 ,柔柔弱弱的气质中透着隐隐的坚强,就像镜中花,水中月一样 ,柔美得是那么不真实 。。。
      涛参加个车友群 ,与她因车而结缘,在群里,涛觉得她是那么地与众不同 ,对事物的看法有着与年龄不符的成熟,聊天中得知,她有过一段伤得痛彻心腑的婚姻 ,现在带着上幼儿园的女儿生活,虽然语气中显得平淡自信,可涛却深深地感受到了她内心的酸楚与无助 。或许男人的肩膀天生就是为了女人的柔弱而生的 ,涛下意识的就想帮帮她。
      也许是上天的安排,她的车第二天就出事故撞了人,新手的她只能求助涛的帮助 ,涛觉得怎么这么巧呢,“早上还短信求他带路去市里办事呢?怎么就出事了呢?莫不是她心里想着自己,而分心了?”涛觉得自己有点自作多情 ,不管怎么 ,涛还是放下手中的工作,去帮她处理事故,还好 她自己没事 ,帮着她报险,修车。事故很锁碎,但她却都能有条不紊的处理 ,看着她在寒风中孤单的身影,涛总有想拥抱下她的冲动 。总想帮着解决下对方无理的纠缠,可是初识的涛又能以什么身份出现呢?他只能懊悔地站在旁边看着她一个人应付 。
      事情告一段落了 ,她请涛吃饭,涛说也没帮着做什么,其实也就当个司机 ,关键的事情一件也没帮上,涛感觉有些内疚,觉得能让她快乐些 ,心情好点就行。酒桌上 ,涛的风趣幽默总是逗得她花枝乱颤,可能很久也没这么开心过了,她有点喝多了 ,说着说着,泪水不自主地流了出来,一个人生活的心酸与孤寂 ,随着泪水倾泄而出。女人的泪,一滴就醉了,涛不自觉地用他那不算宽厚的肩膀拥她入怀 ,任凭泪水打湿衣襟,此时两个人的心相通了,任何言语都是多余的 ,涛能深深体会到她这些年的辛酸痛楚,每一次抽泣都像钢针一样刺痛涛那颗炽热的心,涛心里暗暗发誓 ,再也不让她哭泣了 ,再也不让她感觉到孤寂了,要用自己的肩膀为她的未来撑起一片晴朗的天空 。
      花前月下般的甜蜜,让两人的心贴得更近了 ,让涛唯一感到不安就是自己的条件,一个人独自来到这个城市拼博,每月就是那少得可怜的工资 ,何时才能真正给她一个幸福的家呢?恋爱中的人儿,心是相通的,她感觉得出他的思想负担 ,告诉他喜欢一个人就是让他幸福快乐,而不是让他痛苦,爱是可以超越一切的 ,她根本不再乎这些的,越是这样,涛越感到她的心是那么温柔善良。她爱吃粟子 ,涛就骑自行车满大街的找 ,她病了,涛就熬姜糖水等偏方。 。。。涛的细心体贴让她感到生活很甜蜜,可越是这样 ,越让她心里隐隐地不安,两个人在一起亲昵时,她总是半开玩笑的说 ,她不是一个好女人,为什么还要对她这么好,涛总是笑笑说“就喜欢你这样坏坏的 ,可爱着呢 ”自从心里有了牵挂的她,涛的生活变得丰富充实,不怎么会唱歌的涛也不时地哼起了歌儿 。
“自从我遇上离婚的她
我也开始唱起了情歌
每次的诉说都能感动她
难道我已经爱上了她
我爱上了离婚的女人
。。 。。。 。 。
      相聚总是短暂的 ,美好而温馨,幸福的时光就像从指缝中滑落的阳光,五彩缤纷 ,却又转瞬而逝。。 。。。 。
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      恋爱中的男人也会变得敏感而浪漫 ,涛总是想给她一点点的小惊喜,光棍节那天,她逗涛吵着要他买花 ,涛故意说不会买花的,却精心地准备了巧克力与红酒,突然到她单位 ,想给她个惊喜,可是令涛失望的是,她工作忙 ,连中午的时间都得陪着上海总部来的领导。
      涛当时就有种一种不好的预感,一连几天,涛都没有见到她 ,只是每天在网上能打个招呼,感觉她有很多秘密,有时总是欲言又止。涛就问她 ,是不是有什么事发生了?是不是不喜欢他了?她却总是像小大人似的说 “傻样儿 ,不要总是那么多疑好不?人家不是工作忙吗?乖,等忙完这段时间,就去见你!”涛也想 ,谁没有忙的时候啊,事业第一,但心里就是有些莫名的伤感 。。。 。。。
      初冬的细雨凄凉、冰冷 ,涛实在受不了相思的煎熬,打电话想见见她,可是她又说中午单位有事啊 。涛想着平日的此时 ,正是和她在一起亲亲我我,今天只能孤单的思念,莫明的酸苦一阵阵袭上心头 ,涛想着她常说总是怕凉,就去外面买了电热垫 。正好路过她家,不自主的到了楼下 ,却惊奇地发现 ,她的车刚停在前面,挽着一个中年男人上了楼。涛当时心里一紧,热血直往脑子里涌 ,但涛还是期盼着眼前这一切都不是真实的,不是,不是。 。。。哆嗦地拔通了她的电话 ,她声音很紧张,说她在单位,有些工作加班 ,涛的大脑简直就是一片空白,“现在我就在你家楼下,看到你的车了 ,可以上去坐坐吗?”她毫无迟疑,冷冷的说:“不可以 ”涛还抱着一丝希望“如果今天不见我,以后永远也不会见到我了”她还是狠狠的说“你不能上来 。。。 。。”
     涛的心彻底地碎了 ,就仿佛这冰冷的雨滴 ,顺着脸颊滑落,碎得无影无踪。 。。。 愤怒、屈辱 、痛苦在心头翻腾 。涛的车子像一匹愤怒的野马,疯似的开回了单位 。涛在心里呐喊 ,再也不相信女人了,再也不相信曾经的海誓山盟,再也不相信世上还会有真爱。。 。。。 。
      整个一下午 ,涛感觉自己的灵魂与身体分开了,就像行尸走肉般,干什么都分神 ,做什么都出错,索性就在那坐着,什么也不做。痛苦到了极至就感觉不到痛苦了 ,精神变得麻木,没有了悲伤,没有了愤怒 ,没有了思念。 。。。 。。
      望着QQ上那灰白的头像 ,涛真想用世上最恶毒的言语来狠狠的发泄下,点了鼠标却又没有了怒气,想起了曾经的誓言 ,“再也不让你受到伤害,只有你能抛弃我,不许我先不要你。 。 。。。 。 ”又想往日温情、甜蜜 ,总感觉这一切都是那么的虚无与缥缈,难道真的就像她所说的,所有的爱情对于她来说 ,注定都是一场镜花水月吗?残酷的现实砸起的阵阵涟猗,无情地击碎了水中那凋零的残月,一切的甜蜜美好最终都是幸福的幻觉。
      梦醒了 ,心碎了,一切都成过往云烟了,涛本想留着这灰白的QQ头像 ,让她静静躺在心里最隐秘的角落吧 ,可是,每一次上线,涛都不自觉地去关注她 ,去为她而点亮头像。心就像刀割般的痛 。一狠心连这最后的一丝情缘也断了。。 。。。 。下班的路上音响里传出冷漠的歌
“你换上了他买的新衣
笑容和原来一样的甜蜜
从此在你的两人世界里
有个人把我永远地代替
不再委曲求全挽留你
就让泪水冲去爱过的痕迹。。 。 。。 ”
      平时熟悉的歌,此时听得涛泪眼朦胧。 。。。

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       感情就是一把双刃剑,伤了涛 ,她的心也在滴血 。那个中年人是她公司的副总经理,谈不上帅气,但有种成功男士的魅力 ,家在外地,经常出差,回到公司 ,无论工作还生活上,做为秘书 的她都照顾得体贴入微。在她刚离婚的那段最孤独无助的日子里,身为领导的他 ,从生活上 ,物质上都给了她很多帮助,报恩也好,渴望亲情也罢 ,总之,她把自己能献出的一切,都给了她的领导。······每次他出差回来 ,她就放下手上的一切,像妻子一样全心全意的照顾他 。她对婚姻彻底失望了,也想就这样一直过下去吧 ,可命运偏偏又让她遇到了年轻帅气幽默的涛。冰封多年的情感,在涛那炽热的攻势下,一下子就融化瓦解了 ,她再也控制不住 自己的情感,与涛在一起仿佛又回到了青春萌懂的少女时代,又尝到初恋的甜美。
      涛对她越是痴情 ,她心里负罪感越是强烈 ,有时她真希望这一切都是一场梦,一场如镜花水月般美丽而虚无的梦 。。。 。 。。她曾尝试着想放弃涛,可一切都来得是那么突然 ,感情不是谁能控制得住,现在放弃对涛来说太残忍了,她不忍心伤害单纯、痴情的他 ,也曾想过了断那一段情感,可是就是这么一想,深深的自责更让她不能做一个负心人 ,这么多年了,他对她的好一如既往,只是他的身份让他有所顾忌。一切大事小情 ,他只能在背后默默的支持 。她有时觉得自己就是一个千古罪人,“左手写他 右手写着爱,紧握的双手 模糊的悲哀 ,我的决定 会有怎样的伤害。。 。。。”她想也许只有自己的离开 ,才是最好的结果 。。。 。。。
      有些东西总是失去后才懂得珍惜 。她早已习惯了涛那会心的微笑 、关切的问候 、淡淡的柔情 。。。 。。。没有涛的日子她过得苦涩、枯燥 。可是这刚刚到来的幸福,又被自己亲手砸得粉碎,她深知任何言语都无法挽回了。在去一家以前跟涛一起来过的服装店时 ,老板关切地问男朋友怎么没来呢?她的心当时就碎了,泪水不争气的淌了出来,再也抑制不住自己的情感 ,发了疯似的开车去找涛,就在分神的一瞬间,一辆工程车迎面而来 ,嘭的一声,她脑子一片空白,缥缈中仿佛又回到了涛那温暖、幸福的怀抱。 。。。 。。。
      涛自从那天后 ,向领导申请了承建遥远山区的一个工程,在这艰苦的几个月里,涛对她的思念不但没有淡忘  ,反而越来越强烈 ,后悔为什么不听听她的解释,为什么不想知道什么原因呢?涛爬了几座高山终于找到一点信号,用笔记本上网扔了一个飘流瓶 。 。。。 。
 
      一个夏日午后 ,她在老家的病床上,无意间打开QQ,收到一个来自远方的漂流瓶“月月 ,,难道真的像你说的那样,我们之间的感情就是一场镜花雪月吗?是我太残忍 ,是我太无情,可是你知道吗,很心决定下来的那一瞬间我的眼里全是泪水 ,心里似滴血般痛,虽然你有很多理由来解释这一切,可是我一想到那情景 ,心就碎得一塌糊涂 ,可是狠下心来放弃一切后,心还是那么的痛,我相信缘份 ,希望你能收到这个瓶子,也就收到了我这一份狠心的爱。。 。。。”看着看着,泪水似这冥冥中的一丝缘份 ,无声地融入了白色的被单,只剩一道道儿涩涩的伤痕 。。。 。
一切的甜蜜美好最终却是幸福的幻觉
宛若完美的感情却终是一场镜花水月
轻风细雨中支离破碎
轻风洒泪
细雨心伤
 
那不回头的背影
如月华般美好而遥不可及
如粼粼湖面中不可触的倒影
如破碎之镜
如凋零之花
如难收之水
如弦之花月
 
站在与理解最近的距离
与镜花水月一同破碎的 ·
 
还有那短暂的恋情......

英译版本:

Mirror Water Moon Love
Perhaps the beginning of the acquaintance, it is destined to be a virtual love, mirror water is her net name, she is so clear, gentle, soft and weak In the temperament, it is faintly strong, like flowers in the mirror, the water is the same, and it is so unreal. . .
Tao participated in a car group, with her, in the group, in the group, Tao felt that she was so unique, the views of the things have mature and chat, and she has been there. A marriage of a hurt, now with a daughter of kindergarten, although it is stupid in the tone, but Kayao deeply feels her inner sourness and helplessness. Perhaps the man's shoulder is born for the woman's weakness, and the tight consciously wants to help her.
Maybe it is the arrangement of God. Her car hits the accident next day, and her novice can only ask Helo help. How do I think it is so smart, "I still have a text message to take the way to the city. What? How do you do something? Isn't her heart thinking about himself, and distracted? "Tao felt a bit of self-satisfaction, no matter how, Tao still put down the work in his hand, to help her to handle the accident, but she is fine, she is fine. Help her insurance, repair the car. The accident is very locked, but she can have a process in an orderly manner, watching her in the cold wind, Tao always wants to hug her urge. I always want to help solve the other party's unreasonable entanglement, but what I can appear? He can only repent to stand next to her and watching her.
Things came to a paragraph, she asked Tao to eat, Tao said that there is no help to do anything, in fact, when a driver, the key thing is not helpful, Tao feels some guilt, I feel that she can make her happy , Good mood. On the wine table, the humor of Tao always teased her flowers. It may have been so happy for a long time. She is a bit drinking, saying, tears are not autonomous, and a person living alone With lonely, with tears tilted out. The woman's tears, drunk, and the Tao did not consciously use his little shoulders to go to the arms, let the tears wet clothes, at this time, the hearts of the two people are connected, any speech is extra, the Tao energy I deeply realized that she had a pain in her years. Every time we sow, like a steel needle, the hot heart is, and the heart is dark.The oath, never let her cry, no longer let her feel lonely, use their shoulders to hold a sunny sky for her future.
Sweet, the first month, so that the two people are getting closer, and the only thing that is uncomfortable is their own conditions, and one is alone to this city. This is the little poor salary. When will I really give her a happy home? People in love, the heart is connected, she feels his thoughts, telling him that I like a person is happy, not let him suffer, love can surpass everything, she is not more than these The more this, the more you feel so gentle. She loves to eat the millet, and Tao will ride a bicycle to find the street. She is sick, and the Tao is tapped with a remedies. . . . The careful consideration of the Tao makes her feel a sweet life. The more this, the more it makes her heart hidden, and when two people are relatives, she always joked, she is not a good woman, why should she have to be her? So good, Tao always smiled and said, "I like you so bad, lovely" "Since she is concerned about her, Tao's life has become rich and fulfilling, not how to sing the song from time to time. child.
"Since I met the divorce
I also began to sing the love song
Every time I spent it, I can touch her
I have fell in love with her
I love divorce. Woman
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Get gathered in a short, beautiful and warm, happy time is like sliding down from the fingertips, colorful, but turns too late .....
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The man in love will also become sensitive and romantic. Tao always wants to give her a little surprise, the Singles Day, she is a truiser to buy flowers. Tao Tao deliberately said that it will not buy flowers, but carefully prepared chocolate and red wine, suddenly go to her unit, I want to give her a surprise, but the treasure is disappointed, she is busy, even at noon, I have to stay with Shanghai at noon. Headquarters.
Tao Tao has a kind of bad premonition, a few days, Tao did not see her, but he can greessing online every day, I feel that she has a lot of secrets, sometimes always wants The words are stopped. When Tao, I asked her. Is there anything happened? Is it not like him? She alwaysIt's like a little adult, "Stupid, don't always do so much? Is it busy? Hey, wait for the time, you will see you!" Tao also thought, who is not busy. The first thing is the first, but the heart is some inexplicable sadness. . . . . .
The rain of the early winter is bleak, cold, Tao really can't stand the suffering of Acacia, calling to see her, but she said that there is no in the noon unit. When Tao is thinking about the next day, I will kiss me with her. Today, I can only miss the thoughts. Ming Ming's bitterness hit the heart, and Tao thought she often said that it is always afraid of cool, go I bought an electric hot pad outside. Just passing by her house, I am not independent to the downstairs, but it is surprising that her car just stopped in front, holding a middle-aged man on the building. Tao Tao is tight, blood is brought into the brain, but Tao is still looking forward to this, it is not true, not, not. . . . I took the phone, her voice was very nervous, said her in the unit, some work overtime, Tao's brain was simply a blank, "Now I am under your house, see your car, you can go Sitting? "She has no hesitated, cold and cold:" You can't "Hao Hope" If you don't see me today, I will never see me "She still says" you can't come up. " ..... "
Tao's heart is crushing, as if this cold raindrops, falling in the cheeks, broken without trace. . . . Angry, humiliation, pain in the heart. The car of the Tao is like an angry wild horse, and it is crazy to open the unit. Tao shouted in his heart, no longer believed that women, never believe that the vows of the past, never believe there will be true love in the world. . . . . .
Whole afternoon, Tao feels that his soul is separated from the body, just like a walking dead, do everything, what is wrong, the sure is sitting, nothing. The pain is that I can't feel pain. The spirit becomes numb, there is no sadness, no angry, no thoughts. . . . . .
Looking at the gray avatar on QQ, Tao really wants to use the most vicious speech in the world to vent, point the mouse but have no anger, I remembered the vows that have been vows, "Never let you receive it. Injury, only you can abandon me, don't allow me to first ... "I want to warm in the day, sweet, I always feel that all this is so virtual.If there is anything, is it really like what she said, all love is for her, is it destined to be a mirror flower? The cruel realistic bursts of, ruthlessly crushed the dead moon in the water, everything sweet and beautiful is ultimately happiness.
Woke up, heartbreaking, everything has become the cloud smoke, Taotao wants to stay with this gray QQ avatar, let her lying quietly in the most secure corner, but every time, Taotao I don't help but pay attention to her, and go to her. The heart is like a knife. A little love is also broken. . . . . . The sound of the indifferent song in the road will come to the road
"You have changed the new clothes he bought
smile and the same sweetness
from this world
Someone personally put me Always replace
no longer commit to the whole to retain you
Let the tears rush down the traces of love ..... "
The song that is familiar with, and he heard the tears at this time. . . .

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The feelings are a double-edged sword, hurt the Tao, her heart is also a blood. That middle-aged person is the deputy general manager of her company, I can't talk about handsome, but there is a kind of successful men's charm, home in the field, often travel, returning to the company, no matter what work is still living, she takes care of her for secretary. The body is attached to the micro. In the most reluctant days of her old divorce, he gave her a lot of help from life, material, and reported to be good. In short, she will give themselves. Everything gave her leadership. ······ Every time he is coming back, she puts down everything in her hand, and takes care of him wholeheartedly like his wife. She is completely disappointed with marriage, and I want to have been over, but the fate is biased and she has encountered a young and handsome and humorous. The emotions of frozen, under the hot offensive of Tao, melted, and she also couldn't control her emotions. It seems to have returned to the teenage age of youth, and tasted the first love. Sweet.
Tao's more infatuation, the more heard of her heart, sometimes she hopes that all this is a dream, a dreamless dream of mirror flowers. . . . . . She once tried to give up the Tao, but everything came.So suddenly, the feelings are not to control, now give up the Tao is too cruel, she can't bear to hurt the simple, infatuated him, and I have thought about the emotions, but it is so thoughtful, deep Self-blame makes her can't be a negative person, so many years, he is as good as her, but his identity makes him a concern. Everything is very good, he can only support behind it behind. She sometimes feels that she is a thousand sinners. "The left hand wrote his right hand to write love, the handsome sorrow, my decision will hurt ....." She thinks that only her own leave is The best results. . . . . .
Some things are always lost after they know how to cherish. She has already used it to the smile of Tao, concerned, and a little tenderness. . . . . . She has a bitter, boring without a day. However, this is just coming, and she is smashed by her hand, she knows that any speech cannot be kept. When I went to a clothing store who had been with Tao, the boss asked how the male friend did not come? Her heart was broken, and the tears did not live up. They also suppressed their emotions. They sent crazy driving to find Tao, just in the moment, a engineering car came. And the sound of the jealousy, her brain is blank, and I seem to return to Tao's warmth, happiness. . . . . . .
Tao received a project to the leadership to lead the leadership, in this hard few months, Tao's thoughts not only did not forget, but more and more strong, regret why did she listen to her? Explain, why don't you want to know why? Tao climbed several mountains and finally found a little signal, and threw a drift bottle with a notebook. . . . .

A summer afternoon, she was in the hospital bed, there was not intention to open QQ, received a drifting bottle from the distance "month, is it really like you said, the feelings between us Is it a mirror flower? It is too cruel, I am too ruthless, but you know, very heart, I decided, my eyes are all tears, my heart is like a blood, although you have Many reasons to explain this, but I think of the scene, my heart is broken, but I will give up everything, my heart is still so pain, I believe in the fate, I hope you can receive this bottle, UntilI have a heartless love. . . . . "Looking at it, tears like this, the fate of this, silently incorporated on white, only one scar left ....
Everything sweet and better is ending happiness Illusion
Like a perfect feelings, it will end a mirror flower, the moon
Strong wind is broken
light wind sprinkler
fine rain heart injury

Na n't look back
As soon as the moon is beautiful, it is unable to
like a refined reflection in the lake
such as broken mirror
such as the flowers
If it is difficult to collect water


Standing with the most recent distance
with the mirror flowers and the mirror of the moon, "

there is a short relationship ...

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