我曾沦陷过若楠

作者:上官博康人气:1375更新:2021-07-18 17:00:09

   我爱过一个男孩,他很腼腆 ,他在初二的时候转到我们班,那时候,第一眼见到他 ,感觉他呆呆的 ,就莫名的被他吸引着,知道他画画不错,看他自己在他的课桌上画的“会吸烟的青蛙 ” ,我拿着我的数学书,让他给我画一个,他给我画的不是会吸烟的 ,我承认我很失望,也承认心里对这个还不熟悉的男孩产生了莫名奇妙的感觉。就是想接近他 。
     我渐渐的发现我对这个男孩产生了兴趣,有意无意的接近他 ,更庆幸的是我们回家的路是一个方向,你会在前边走,我会在后边默默的看着你 ,看着你在前边和你朋友疯疯闹闹,心里有种不一样的感觉,喜欢默默的关注着你。
    我们终于成为了好朋友 ,我以你“小小弟”的名义享受着你的温柔 ,享受着你的宠溺,, ,,, ,,, ,不知什么时候,你喜欢上了一个女孩,那时我们是初三 ,嗯,我知道你喜欢她,她是个很可爱的女孩 ,人也很好 ,我不知是什么感觉,我和朋友们帮你制造机会,当时想的只是你开心就好。后来你们分手了 。
     高中的时候 ,我更是习惯你的宠溺,习惯你事事顺着我,习惯你关心我 ,后来你和我班的一个女生处对象了,我承认,我心情很不爽 。我没拦你 ,后来你们分手了。
   高二下学期,放假,我不在家 ,也没回学校,在外面呆了半年,也就是高三上半年 ,我对你表白了 ,我喜欢你,甚至于爱上你了。我们是10月4号正式开始交往,11月22号在一起的 。我从没后悔把自己交给你。
     我上大学了 ,你一直都来看我,我也是同学们羡慕的对象,因为你对我真的很好。可是好景不长 ,你也上学了,上的职校,也是我们感情破裂的直接导火索 。
    你对我说你喜欢她的那一刻 ,我心都碎了,真的伤到我的心了,我不知道自己该不该原谅你。为了报复你 ,我和别人在一起了,牺牲了自己,后来才发现自己好傻 ,我们说好的为彼此保留着 ,可是我还是背叛了诺言,没有为你坚守,我没觉得一点高兴 ,甚至于很后悔。你说你不在乎,哪个男人会不在乎?你说如果我怀孕,你养 ,即使不是你的 。说实话,我很感动。可是我不愿再受伤,。伤不起 。也觉得自己配不上了。。 。我说过你会是我唯一的男人 ,现在不是了 。。我自己也过不了自己的这个坎儿。什么时候我才能真的放下?

英译版本:

I loved a boy, he was very awkward, he turned to our class when he was second, then, when he saw him, he felt that he was stunned, he was attracted by him, knowing him Painting is good, watching the "smoking frog" in his desk, I took my mathematics book, let him draw one, he doesn't smoke, I admit me. Very disappointed, also admitted that the heart has a inexplicable feeling of boy who is still unfamiliar. Just think close to him.
I gradually discovered that I have interested this boy, I am more interested, I am more glad is that the road we go home is a direction. You will walk before, I will watch you silently behind you. Looking at you in front and your friends crazy, there is a different feeling in my heart, I like to pay attention to you.
We finally became a good friend, I enjoy your gentleness with your "little brother", enjoy your favor, ,,,,,,,, I don't know when, you like a girl. At that time, we were first three. Well, I know that you like her, she is a very cute girl, people are also very good, I don't know what it feels, I will help you make a chance to make a chance, I think about you. Great. Later, you broke up.
When high school, I am used to your favor. I am used to you. I am used to care for me. Later, you and my class a girl, I admit that I am very uncomfortable. I didn't stop you, later you broke up.
High school semester, holiday, I am not at home, I haven't returned to school, I stayed in the middle of the year, that is, the third year of the year, I pretend to you, I like you, even in love with you. We officially started from October 4, and on November 22nd. I never regret it to you.
I am going to college, you have always come to see me, I am also an object envied by the students, because you are really good for me. However, the good is not long, you have also goes to school, the working school, and the direct fuse of our feelings.
You said that you like her, my heart is broken, really hurt my heart, I don't know if I should not forgive you. In order to revenge, I have been with others, sacrificing myself, and then I found myself stupid, we said that I have retained each other, but I still betrayed the promise, I didn't feel it, I didn't feel it.I have been very happy and even regret it. You said that you don't care, which man doesn't care? You said if I am pregnant, you raise, even if you are not yours. To be honest, I am very touched. But I don't want to be injured again. Can't afford to hurt. I also feel that I can't afford it. . . I said that you will be my only man, now not. . I can't pass my own cach. When can I really put down?

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