独唱悲伤天晴

作者:包沛斐人气:2032更新:2021-07-19 17:00:06

      遇到难过的事情,我的第一反应是想找人倾诉 ,可是犹豫过后,还是选择独唱悲伤。我害怕没有人能够理解我,没有人能够陪伴我 ,那么我就一个人宣泄伤痛吧 。
 
      不知从何时开始,我养成了报喜不报忧的习惯。面对家人和朋友,我无法坦率地说出心中的忧愁 ,不仅是害怕他们会为我担心,还担忧着他们无法分担我的沉重。带着种种顾虑,我选择把苦闷都放在心里 ,向他们露出开心的笑容 。面对不熟悉的人,我更加无法表露真实的情绪,维持着平静的表情 ,让大家知道我很坚强。
 
      在人前 ,我可以装作若无其事。但在独处时,安静的环境催化了内心的伤感,刺激着脆弱的神经 ,引出了泪水 。多少个夜晚,我躲在被窝里哭泣。不敢嚎啕大哭,只能低声啜泣。哭累了才能入睡 ,却在梦境中再度落泪 。一夜过去了,脸上的泪水仍未干。看着镜子中憔悴的自己,突然有一种想要痛骂自己的冲动 ,但还来不及骂出口,就已经哽咽了。
 
      一个人的时候,我常常会对自己说:“好累啊 。”但是别人面前 ,我很少这样说,甚至很少表现出疲态 。也许在我的潜意识里,我不希望别人可怜我 ,认为我太脆弱 ,所以我极力营造一个坚强的形象,骗过了很多人,却没能顺便骗过自己。
 
      我依然独唱悲伤 ,不愿意和任何人合唱悲歌。再多的苦楚我都要一个人承担,虽然很累,但是我会告诉自己“我能行 ” ,无论多么难熬,也要撑过去 。

英译版本:

I met a sad thing, my first reaction was to find someone to talk, but he hesitated, or he chose a solo sorrow. I am afraid that no one can understand me, no one can accompany me, then I will vent the pain.

I don't know when I started, I developed the habit of reporting nothing. In the face of your family and friends, I can't frankly say the sorrow in my heart, not only afraid they will worry about me, but also worry about their heavy weight. With various concerns, I chose to put the depression in my heart and show them a happy smile. In the face of unfamiliar people, I can't show real emotions, maintain a calm expression, let everyone know that I am strong.

Before people, I can put it if there is anything. But when you are alone, the quiet environment catalyzes the heart of the heart, stimulating fragile nerves, leads out tears. How many nights, I am crying in the nest. I don't dare to cry, I can only whisper weep. Crying tired to fall asleep, but in the dreams. Overnight, the tears on my face still did not do it. Looking at myself in the mirror, there is a kind of impulse who wants to take myself, but I haven't come to export, I have already swallowed.
When a person, I often say it to yourself: "It's so tired." But in front of others, I rarely showed that it was very weak. Maybe in my subconscious, I don't want others to pity me, think that I am too fragile, so I try to create a strong image, deceived a lot of people, but I can't deceive myself.

I still sing sadness, I don't want to sing and sing with anyone. I have to bear a person, I have a person who is very tired, but I will tell myself "I can do", no matter how difficult, I have to support it.

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