活在当下是一种最好的状态，不怀念过去，也不幻想未来。但是我做不到 ，在许多个当下都徘徊在回忆和幻想之中，成了一个个遥不可及的当下 。
我并不是一个能够精神集中的人，很容易走神。平常上自习课的时候 ，我一开始是在认真思考题目的，可是思维会渐渐偏向其他事情。等回过神来，才发现已经过了好几分钟 ，却还是没能想出答案，或者根本就没有认真地去想 。我强迫自己集中精神思考，可是依然会发呆 ，学习效率一直提高不了。
如果过去我能够把所有发呆的时间都用来学习，成绩必定不会像现在这样不上不下的。然而就在我每个想要努力的当下，思绪都会被牵走 ，想起某次假日的旅程，计划这个周末的行程，幻想毕业后的自由生活 。我的大脑被过去和将来占据了大半的位置，忽略了现在。
那些励志文章里常常会出现“珍惜时间”、“把握当下 ”之类的话 ，但是对我来说，当下太遥远，我根本抓不住。对过去的眷恋 ，对未来的期待和担忧，瓜分了现在的每一分每一秒 。我行走在人生的道路上，常常回头看着自己来时的路 ，又常常踮起脚尖张望远方的路，却很少花时间认真地看脚下的路，花时间走好眼前的每一步。一旦被别人赶上了 ，我会焦急起来，不知所措地东张西望，却还是没能静下心来走自己的路。
何时才能把握遥不可及的当下？或许当下并不遥远 ，只是我不愿意积极地面对眼前的路，怕受伤 、怕后悔，总是要迟疑很久才肯迈出一步 。希望有一天，我能够只看当下 ，放下对过去的遗憾和对未来的忧心，踏踏实实地走下去，让心和生活变得清静自在。
Living in the moment is the best state, do not miss the past, and not the fantasy future. But I can't do it. In many cases, I have been in the memories and fantasies, it has become a distant moment.
I am not a person who can concentrate, it is easy to go. When I first go to the self-study class, I started thinking about the topic, but thinking will gradually bias to other things. I have come back to God, I found that I have been over a few minutes, but I still can't come up with the answer, or I don't think about it seriously. I force myself to concentrate on thinking, but still will be dazzling, and learning efficiency has been improved.
If I can use all the time to learn, the results will not be not until now. However, in the case of every time I want to work, my thoughts will be taken away, think of a holiday journey, plan this weekend's itinerary, fantasy after graduation. My brain has been in the past and in the future, I ignored the present.
Those inspirational articles often have "cherish time", "grasp the current", but for me, I am too far away, I can't catch up. For the past love, the future expectation and worry, the melon is divided every minute. I walk on the road of life, often looked back at the way I came, and I often picked up the road of the foot of the foot, but I took time to look at the road under my feet, spend time. Every step in front of you. Once you are caught up by others, I will be anxious, I don't know how to play, but I still can't calm down my heart.
When can you grasp the moment? Maybe it's not far away, just I don't want to actively face the road in front of you, afraid of hurt, afraid of regret, always hesitate to take a long time. I hope that one day, I can only look at the moment, put down the regret of the past and worry about the future, go down, let the heart and life become quiet.
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