宝贝,对不起欢藤

作者:袁叔元人气:2042更新:2021-07-20 06:01:44

宝贝 ,对不起!
坐在沙发上,我绞尽脑汁,措着词发道歉短信 ,给昨天生气挂了我电话的妈妈,
深夜里,我一边轻拍着从梦魇中惊醒的宝宝 ,一边安抚着被哭声吵醒的老公的不满 。
那一刻我只想逃离 ,去做我一直都想做的事——
站在镜子前,郑重地和你道歉:
宝贝,对不起 ,我让你活得这么委屈!
曾经你也颇具才华,曾经你也凌云壮志
可是活着活着,我却把你活成了陌生人
你的才华早已泯灭于元角分中 ,
你的壮志早已消散于油盐醋中,
你疾行于茫茫人海中,
你奔波于芸芸众生中
曾经 ,我以为你的退场是值得的,
可现在,我在想 ,弄丢了你,才是我最大的失败!
没有了你的我,只能戴着面具生活。
笑的时候笑 ,哭的时候也笑。
因为现在我才知道:除了你 ,没有人想知道我为什么哭 。
他们只会说:不要哭,你的哭是在给我压力
现在的我好想回去———
回到小学的操场上,坐在篮球架下 ,抬头向上看
那个角度,总会让教学楼显得格外的高大,总会让天空显得格外的远 ,
那时,我们相信长大后,我们会变成飞鸟 ,翱翔于整个天际
回到楼后的假山上,躺在石桌上,闭着眼睛听
那种方式 ,总会让小鸟的歌声格外的美,总会让花开的声音格外的响
那时,我们相信长大后 ,我们会变得自由 ,周游于整个世界
回到深夜的阳台上,手扶着栏杆,极目远眺
那个方向 ,总会让夜晚的天空深邃得像大海,总会让那颗星明亮得像灯塔
那时,我们幻想 ,那颗被我们悄悄取了名字的星星会来接我们遨游星空
是什么时候呢,是什么时候弄丢了你?
是我在试卷中挣扎,再也无暇走到操场上时吗?
是我在恋爱中甜蜜 ,被爱情的甘醇迷醉的时候吗?
是我在工作中奔忙,只顾着用薪水衡量价值的时候吗?
还是在我沉醉于小生命的笑颜中时?
亦或是从我再不在商场的女装柜台前犹疑时?
总之,在我不经意时 ,你离开了。
今夜,我想找回你,你躲到哪儿去了呢?
是躲在我们小时候在花园埋下的花床下吗?
是躲在那本我觉得幼稚得不忍再睹而束之高阁的日记本里吗?
还是躲在了那片我们总是猜测遍布野兽却从没鼓足勇气闯入的树林里呢?
你总不会是又顺着那架我们无意中发现的梯子爬到了那幢楼的楼顶了吧?
我该怎么找回你呢?
找回了你 ,我又真地留得住你吗?
我被无数的丝线缠住 ,那是让我束缚却无论怎样都舍不得解开的丝线
如果找回了你,却无力带你去实现梦想,你会不会失望呢?
如果最终连你也对我皱眉 ,那份痛苦我能够承受吗?
我如同蛹,被重重地裹住,如果破茧而出的代价是只有你陪我 ,
那份孤独我又能承受吗?
我不知道,这答案我解不出来。
如果我只是一只小虫,总做蝴蝶的梦是不是不好?
如果我是只蝴蝶 ,即便我安心做只虫子,是不是也做不到合格?

英译版本:

Baby, I am sorry!
Sitting on the sofa, I ramp my brain, began to apologize for text messages, I am angry with my phone yesterday,
late in the middle of the night, I looked taking a baby from the dream, calm The husband of the husband who was cryked woke up was dissatisfied.
At that moment, I just want to escape, I have always wanted things -
standing in front of the mirror, solemnly apologize:
Baby, I am sorry, I will let you live so wronged!
Once you have been talented, you have also linger.
But live alive, I will live you into strangers
Your talents have already been destroyed in the Yuan Middle,
Your Zhuang It has already dissipated in oil and saline,
You are in the vast sea,
You are running in all beings
once, I thought you were worth it,
can now, I am thinking I lost you, it is my biggest failure!
Without you, I can only wear a mask life.
When laughed, I laughed when I cried.
Because I know now: In addition to you, no one wants to know why I cried.
They will only say: Don't cry, your cry is giving me pressure
I really want to go back ---
Go back to elementary school, sit down under the basketball, look up
That angle, always makes the teaching building are particularly high, will always make the sky look very far,
At that time, we believe that we will become a bird, soaring through the whole sky
Go back to the rocker behind the floor, lying on the stone table, closed the eyes
, always let the bird's singular beauty, will always let the flowers are extraordinary
When we believe that we will become free, we will be free, around the world
returned to the balcony in the late night, hand holding the railing, the extremely far-sighted
That direction, always make the sky in the night deep profound Like the sea, always make the star bright look like the lighthouse
At that time, we fantasize, the stars who were quietly taken quietly, when we came to the starry sky
What time, when is it getting Lost you?
I am struggling in the test paper, and when I have no time to go to the playground?
I am sweet in loveWhen is you fascinated by love?
Is I rushing in my work, only when using salary measure value?
Is it in my smile in a small life?
Ali or never in front of the women's counter in the shopping mall, is it in front of the shopping mall?
In short, when I don't care, you left.
Tonight, I want to find you, where are you hiding?
Is it hiding under our childbed under the garden?
Is it hiding in that, do I think I don't bear the diary?
Still hiding the piece we always guess the beasts from the beast never drifted into the trend of the courage?
You will never be a ladder that we accidentally discovered to the building of the building?
How should I find you back?
I found back you, I really stayed with you?
I was entangled in countless silk lines, that is, I will be bound, but I will not let go of the wire
if I find you, but I will not be disappointed.
If you finally eat, you can affected me, can I accept it?
I was wrapped in a shackle, if I broke up, I only accompany me,
Can I have a lonely?
I don't know, I can't solve this answer.
If I am just a bug, is it not good to do a butterfly?
If I am a butterfly, even if I am in peace, don't I do it?

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